From: Daddy
7:35pm: I have just arrived the gym and received a long distance call from DT, who's travelling in HK, telling me that Princess has just fainted, and appeared very weak. Prior to that, she has vomitted profusely. Immediately, I phoned Lynn, who was at home with Princess, to rush her to the Vet's. Likewise, without changing out of my gym attire, I packed my bag and dashed out of the Orchard building.
Location of the vet: Yishun St 71, Blk 716. A place that I have no idea how to reach and flipping through the road directory didn't help.
7:45pm: Talked to DT and Lynn on the phone. Both of them were anxious coz Princess seems to be dying. DT starting crying.
8:00pm: Lynn was reaching the vet's. Princess was almost motionless. Breathing was faint. Eyes staring out of the taxi car window. Lynn noticed Princess was getting into minor fits as she clenched her paws.
8:15pm: I was still on the road, somewhere in Ang Mo Kio, Yio Chu Kang and clueless how to get to the destination. Persistently, I drove as fast as I could and tried to figure out by reading the signboards along the way.
8:25pm: Somewhere along Yishun Ring Road. Very close to the clinic. Received DT's call. DT appeared extraordinary calm, and told me to drive slowly and carefully. What came next cut my heart like a knife. PRINCESS HAS DIED. I screamed my lungs out and prayed so hard to God to keep Princess alive. I thought DT was joking. No, this couldn't have happened to my bouncy and hyper-energetic Princess!
8:26pm: Called Lynn. It was the first time I heard her sobbing uncontrollably over the phone. She repeatedly said" Princess is dead, Princess is dead!" The phrase shot through my eardrums and I swore I almost couldn't breathe.
8:35pm: Finally. Reached Blk 716, Yishun ST 71. Banged so hard and the gate opened; Dr. Kenneth greeted me gently, but looked very solemn. I ran into the consultation room and saw Lynn squatting, face flustered, tears pouring as she kept blaming herself for causing her death because she should have taken better care of Princess.
And there Princess was, cold and motionless on the surgeon's table. I felt so dizzy and faint. I could have collapsed, but after seeing Lynn's state, I told myself to be strong. I swallowed my tears, walked towards Princess and gave her a big hug and caressed her motionless body.
Dr Kenneth had a conversation with me thereafter and suspected that Princess's death could have been caused by intoxication. She could have licked or consumed some poisonous substance. But the main reason was due to suffocation - fluids in the lungs. The fluids could have been the vomit that Princess kept swallowing during her bouts earlier.
Soon, I walked back to Princess and gave her a farewell kiss. Her eyes weren't closed. I knew she suffered a lot, even though Dr Kenneth tried to console us by saying that she has passed away peacefully. Tears welled up my already swollen eyes, but I forced myself to be calm and collected. I needed to do that for Lynn.
9:05pm: We drove off from the clinic. Lynn and Princess sat at the rear seat. On the journey back home, the car was filled with sniffing sounds and the occassional sobs from the both of us.
9:45pm: Home. Uncle had dug a grave behind the house and we buried Princess there.
11:15pm: After consoling Lynn and ensuring she was better, I left the house. I had to bid Princess a last goodbye. Drove back to the grave spot and sat down beside Princess. Tears rolled down my cheeks freely. I was alone and I have to release my emotions at that very moment, without hesitating.
"Princess, Daddy is sorry. I should have spent more time with you, to play with you and hug you more. I am very very sorry. Daddy really loves you very much. Do you know there are so many things that I want to do with you together? We can go to the beach, have a walk along the park, gardens and visits to pet farms. There is also so much that I want to tell you, do you know that?"
Sweet love, I know you are very tired at this moment. I understand. Have a long good sleep. Don't worry, God will take care of you for me until the day Daddy joins you. I promise I'll look for you then and be with you one day. Daddy promises. Don't cry, Princess. Don't cry. I know you will miss Daddy. Daddy misses you too. But for now, rest well my baby, rest well. I love you forever, I really do. "